5.09.2011

first post.

Tonight I went grocery shopping. This would not be odd normally, but tonight it was. Because it was for one.

I was married for less than 2 years. Even the lawyer I went to go see thought that was ridiculous. The guy who went in to see her before me looked like a biker but drove a UHaul. To an appointment with his lawyer. That guy = less ridiculous than this girl.

I expected to face awkwardness when I told my conservative co-workers that I was no longer living with my husband.
I expected it to be a little odd when I came home and a bed and half of the stuff that was in the house was now not in the house.
I expect my mom to call me with her sad voice on because naturally nothing in the world can be normal ever again.
I did not, however, expect to be shocked by. grocery. shopping.

It was the first time I'd been to the store and not looked for something for my husband. It was the first time I wondered... what do I want? And I actually bought it. And only that. I bought tomatoes, whole wheat wraps, peppers, a cucumber, spinach, draino, and kitchen cleaner. Things I would not have bought just a mere 10 days ago. (What? Because what you buy at the store is so normal?)

That, my friends, is what made me think... I should start a blog.

This is not where I thought my life would be right now. I never imagined that at 24 I would be wondering how the heck I'm going to pay for a lawyer... whether I remember how to check my own air pressure in my tires... and what I'm going to do with my facebook pictures because he's in half of my albums.

This is real life, people.

I'm not sure where my next steps are. And I'm Asian and I've had a glass of wine so I'm more or less drunk so that's not helping. You're probably the only person who will ever read this.

That last sentence is written to me.