.boys.

Hanging out with middle school girls has taught me a lot. It also frightens me. For a lot of the girls, the world revolves around boys.
They live, eat, move, breathe... everything for a boy.
They change who they are.
They leave their circle of friends and join his.
They give up who they are.

Then when said boy leaves said girl because she's not the cool, unique girl he liked in the first place (because she's basically become a copy of him), girl is heartbroken. She cries to all of her friends who assure her it's his loss. She eats countless amounts of chocolate. And maybe ice cream. And watches sappy movies.

Then ... hope! Said boy might like girl again!! Forget all of the hurtful stuff that he did or said... he wants me back! That's what we think to ourselves. So we continue being a shadow of who we really are. Who we were made to be. And we settle into trying once again to please and become this one boy.

ENOUGH.

Why do we do this to ourselves? It's hard to wait and be patient. I have done everything in this post so many times. And I look back now and realize all the mistakes I made and don't want anyone else to go through it.

It's so much easier to go for the lowest hanging fruit.
To not really be vulnerable.
To not ever really be known.
To not fight, but just agree with everything.

But it's never as good as it was meant to be when we don't hold out for the best.